Spread on the canvas it beckons you
Splashed on the body it disgusts you
When in the eyes it troubles you
When in the heart it kills you
It is RED.
It is passion and poison
It is love and hate
It is life and death
It is RED..
It is you and me
It is they and us
It is the separation and nearness
It is RED..
May lady luck smile on u!!That is what I pray for all my friends and people I love.. It is a tough time and tougher for me due to other reasons too.. I wish I had that support with me which was my strength. Anyways.. this is the time to bless each other, help each other, be there for each other.. holding each others’ hands for support, comfort and assurance that everything good is going to happen to us.
If I had to say one thing to someone I love .. it would be .. May God give u everything in life that u want… be happy always and God Bless u…
A shining existence, a bright face
To be a reflector of all rays
Is the fate of this Crystal..
To be constantly polished upon
To be set in Gold and Platinum
To be admired for its brilliance
To be adored for its purity….
Never it matters where this came from
From the darkness of void
Or from the fire of Hell
What did it go through
What payment was done
It had to change to be loved and liked
Never showing the truth behind its eyes
Keeping the untold stories within
Is the fate of this Crystal
And it calls itself Blood Diamond
These are the words written by a Czech poetess and it connected with me so much that I was forced to think about it. I am writing the whole section down:
A Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season, or
a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you
will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is
usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have
come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you
with guidance and support, to aid you physically,
emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a
godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason
you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an
inconvenient time, this person will say or do something
to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realise is that our need has been met, our
desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you
sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON . . .
Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount
of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things
you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the
person, and put what you have learned to use in all
other relationships and areas of your life. It is said
that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Perhaps the positive person inside me has a real never say die spirit and despite all my hardships finds out a way to pep me up. Music and reading has done wonders to me and am back to feeling lot like normal 
. …
One the songs which echoed my feelings… an awesome rendition by Zeb and Haniya. A powerful female sound combined with awesome vocals of Javed Bashir is enough to pep you up in any mood. Lyrics of the song is as below:
Rona Chhor Diya Lyrics:
teri bataon ney dil tora
tuney daikha aur munh mora
badal garja thora thora
teri bataon ney dil tora
tuney daikha aur munh mora
badal garja thora thora
pani barsa
ye dil tarsa
par jab beeta thora arsa
mainey rona chor diya
guzra they jinsy rastay
wohi anjan aahain ban gain
karni thi tjsay baat inkahi
shayad chup hi hai sahi
halchul main hai sagar sabhi
sakin hai kuch junbish nahi
yonhi hai guzray hai zindagi
jeetay koi koi
ab tou main bus aik bhawar hoon
gardish main hoon rahguzar hoon
tufaan hoon main tera dar hoon
chal pari hai kal ki khoyi
himmat hai tou rokay koi
mainey rona chor dia
girtay paton nay
aas hai bhari
kal na aayegi kabhi
bandho dhras ab
waqt hai yehi
kar guzro sub kuch abi
gardish main hai mausam sabhi
thari nahi rokay nahi
rasm-e-dunyia hai tou yehi
ponchay koi koi
teri bataon ney dil tora
tuney daikha aur munh mora
badal garja thora thora
pani barsa
ye dil tarsa
par jab beeta thora arsa
mainey rona chor diya
mainey rona chor dia
mainey rona rona rona rona rona chor dia
Isn’t it beautiful?? I loved the simplicity and the strength of this song. May be because such is the support I need right now. Damn.. it feels so good to be simply alive and kicking 
. What a present life is .. with all its beautiful things.. with few ugly things thrown ur way.. may be to teach you things in ur life which u might have otherwise overlooked. And yeah one of the best learnings about myself – Start being less impulsive. Babe.. u can do it.
I do not even remember when I stopped making resolutions for the new year. It seems such a childish thing to do. But yeah I do appreciate the freshness a new year brings. The hope of making yet another start… the song in the heart ” Give me some sunshine, Give me some rain, Give me another chance, I wanna grow up once again”. I still do not believe in taking resolutions coz I know those are meant to be broken . But this year, I will promise something to myself. I will try and live every day as if it is my last. Look at the wonders around me, feel happy, be healthier, be loving to people who care about me.
I will try and make the most out of everyday.. this is the only promise I can make to myself.. No resolutions, no bindings… bus a taste of freedom …………. and a flight.
Parents are the biggest blessing we have. And sometime, blinded by our selfish ways, we take them for granted. A mother’s lap is the first comfort we have known. A father’s hold means more than a world’s security. “Ma” is the first word that we speak and “Pa” is our anchor in distress. How conveniently we discount the countless nights they were awake just to cradle u to sleep. How many nights they turned in their sleep just to see that you were not having a nightmare. How many times Mamma put her food in your mouth so that u have a healthy life. How many times she cleaned up ur mess with a smile on her face. How many times your dad taught u the same thing without getting tired. Today we get tired just by answering few questions. We question them back about what they have done for us. Today our little family means more than the little family of our parents. Today we question them about their ways of bringing us up. And we forget – whatever we are , we will always be a part of them – in body and flesh as much as in hearts. We owe our very existence to them leave alone the freedom to live that life. I have also taken my parents for granted many a times and I am extremely sorry for that. I am sorry for every tear I have ever caused to them. I am sorry for every bout of pain they ever felt because of me. I am sorry for not showing my love enough. I love you Mom and Dad. I want to protect you the way u did when i was small. I wanna be there for u the way u were all along with me. I want now to make u proud of ur baby. Because I know – this is the only way I can wipe away ur pain and bring smile to u. U mean the world to me. I can’t exist without u.
So where does it all start? Target of getting good marks or satisfaction of completing exams in a good way or the necessity of going through the age old notes or the pleasure derived from learning something new out of the garbage served in words… which one of these fits MY bill?
May be all.. may be not even one..
And for others.. some people are simple enough to have one of these as their target in their life@Hell and some as complex as I – Who do not even know where one ends and the other starts.
Well… the illusion is broken and the myth shattered. Institutional system is as obsolte as it can be and yeah they talk about innovation and manifest it by having none. Enjoy the experience of non motion in time and energy.
I am here since June and have only finished reading two books.. what a waste!!
Spending some time with myself these days I realised how important books are to me… books and music. I am game to any quality stuff in both respects. Today was writer unleashed in me… wrote more than 3000 words today.. yeah actually I did it. Have downloaded few books and solemnly promised myself to finish them up asap. Enjoying my first love …
My hit list:
1) The Japanese Wife by Kunal Basu (half way thru)
2) Unbearable lightness of being by Milan Kundra
3) Ilium by Dan Simmons (half way thru)
4) The Zen and the art of motorcycle maitenance (half way thru)
5) The Great Indian Novel by Shashi Tharoor
Sounds great… and yes I plan to finish them all before the start of the next term.. thats my target baby!!
Its 1:56 am.. Tuesday morning and here I am , finding my Neverland amidst books encased in glasses. Yes Boy! I am talking about being in a library at this God damn awful hour. Third consecutive day of my life I find myself in library , wondering how did i end up here. Let me tell you my story ( of course, I know nothing as mundane as this would interest you.. but cant help being an opportunist ).
I was a simple , fun loving gal with stars in my eyes – Dnt worry I didnt want to be a film star and Thanks God U guys are saved. I decided to take CAT as I seriously and naively thought that it would make a huge difference to my career prospects. IIM L was the place I came to… liked the fast pace of life… fast but disconneted. The charm wore off very soon. The academics soon replaced everything in my life and clung to No.1 position as an aging hero to the ratings. Hmmm..speaking candidly, I had few memorable moments too. Setting up a chai bar, investing my emotions and heart in it .. having the company of my friends over a good cuppa tea.. doing all sorts of BAKAR 
and yeah.. music… Nothing made the days more bearable.
I still have stars in my eyes, still believe in the good thing called life.. and still have friends who make it all more appealing..
Hey .. the million dollar question still remains unanswered.. How the hell did i end up in a library at this hour. And How Uncool I can be … living in the library.
Well…. the answer is -Forget ti yaar.. I no longer remember the reason.. cool or Uncool i leave upto u to decide. Happy thinking.. .. and dnt dare strangle me in ur dreams, which i think you would love to do..I can see those teeth baring , nose flaring face… ah huh…
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